worrying

Well today I had my first pregnancy check-up, and I can't say that I felt that it went very well. I got there at 9:22 for my 10:00 appointment, and didn't get called back until 10:20. I know that's pretty standard, but it still bothers me that I can't make an appointment for 10:00 and actually be seeing a doctor at that time. Also, the receptionist was not very friendly, which just didn't give me a good feeling.

I started with a pregnancy test (positive!) and weighing in (161), then moved to the exam room. I met with a nurse practitioner this time, which normally is fine, but I was a little upset that it was not even the one I had scheduled (whom I really like) and the one they had me meet with was working her last day with the practice today. She told me that they wouldn't get our medical histories until our next visit, nor would we get to see the baby's heartbeat until then. During the pelvic exam, she mentioned that my uterus was measuring smaller than 8 weeks, so she ordered that I get blood work done in order to assess my hormone levels. Because today was the NP's last day, she was leaving early, so I won't get the results of the blood work until Monday. I honestly wonder if anyone will even call me since it seems like I just keep getting passed along.

I was expecting this visit to be reassuring and calm some of my fears of miscarrying, but instead it just left me with more worries. I've googled all the reasons for why women measure small, and while most of them are not worrisome, I still worry that our baby has just stopped developing. They also forgot to give me the prenatal information packet, and still had not officially assigned me a doctor even though I had requested Dr. Moss on three different occasions.